As I re-examine myself today and apply what I have learned over this advanced testing period of the last 9 years, I can honestly say there were a few times I didn't think I would make it. On some level I hit bottom and I did give up. Time and again I find myself going through a cycle of death and rebirth. Just when I am positive that this is the end, I find myself at the summit with a new perspective and a new longing for the next chapter. Something within me wants to be alive! I can once again feel that motor from within. It's alive again, revving and reigniting my passions.
I'm not completely certain, but I may be describing the force of the planet Pluto. Pluto is a transformational planetary energy. It represents alchemy and plumbing the depths to eliminate what is no longer useful. New Horizons is the Pluto mission that was launched in 2006. It makes me think back to that time. What was I doing when I launched my 2006 mission? When I look back, I can remember relationships that were formed, partnerships and risks that I was taking. Seeds I was planting. The mountain that I was viewing from the very bottom. So majestic and glorious, if perhaps daunting and maybe even my detachment from it. All that I didn't know, somehow allowing me the strength to begin the journey. The innocence guiding me, more than the certainty.
Today I can look at this same mountain from the top. View the New Horizon. Take a breath. Sigh it out. See the pictures and images I have stored in my mind. Understanding what I have been through, perhaps a little bit more. With this understanding comes a need to reinvent. To shift and discard. To detach and release that which no longer serves. Shadowing the lessons that I may be getting from my reflection in planet Pluto. I don't know about you, but what I am noticing most from the image of Pluto is that big heart.
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